AS I stood there between the train wagons smoking a cigarette I thought I'd enjoy even though I knew it'd only make me feel worse, I kept thinking about those three guys sitting next to me stealing my wallet from my bag though it has no money in it and I kept thinking how I'd deal with that then instead of enjoying the song I convinced myself it'd go well with the cigarette.
And to quote Holden here, 
"It didn't exactly depress me to think about it, but it didn't make me feel gay as hell either."